where everybody knows my name

like in cheers where everyone knows everyone, thats what a trip to the hospital is like for me. jokes of "i'll get your room ready" may seem funny to those around me but in reality they're not jokes. i'm in and out of hospital so often that i do have my own room. it had been a while since i was last in, so i thought i'd pay them a visit

thats a lie

i was put there by someone who probably doesnt even realise they'd done it. i have problems with stress, if i get too stressed, something in my brain clicks and shuts everything down. i black out and wake up again when my body is recovered enough to habdle the next barrage of stress to be thrown at it. usually i can tell when i'm getting to that point but i couldnt last night because i was already sedated. already on a tranquiliser and i still couldnt relax, just goes to show how upset i was. so i didnt know it was about to happen and thus (yes, i said thus) was not seated. i blacked out and hit my head on my desk. as luck would have it (not that i actually believe in luck), the cut isnt too bad and i didnt have to have stitches which is good, cos they'd had have to have shaved my head a bit to do it which would have pissed me the fuck off. but no, i caught a break for once and just had to have some glue applied to my scalp

i've had cussion about a billion times, thats no big deal anymore, but today i am cranky as all fuck. please excuse me if i seem a little snippy, snarky, stressed and any other words beginning with 's' or any other letter that basically mean i'm pissed off, but its not aimed at you

unless you are the person that did this