she's such a charmer, oh no

i like kings of leon, deal with it

anyway. i do stupid things because i'm stupid. that is a fact that even through many many many years of trying, i cannot change. i say stuff that i know will upset someone because i want to see if it actually will. i do stuff that i know will make people angry at me just to see if they will

i am, and always have been, a troublemaker. i got kicked out of school when i was fifteen for breaking my mathes teacher's nose. i'm dyslexic so i never paid attention in mathes. then one day the guy said "you're as much of a little prick as your father was". now, i dont mind being calle any name you like. you can call me a cunt and i'll agree with you, but dont talk shit about my family. i asked the teacher to repeat himself and he knew he was getting himself into trouble and said "um, do your work". i couldnt do the work, thats why i was causing trouble. i simply, and quietly, stood up, walked towards him and swung my fist at him. he went down like a sack of shit and i walked out

aimie called me later that night to say i'd knocked the guy unconcious and he was out for about 20 minutes until the paramedics got there. i'd broken his nose and i was getting expelled. by this time i couldnt care less. i hadnt been a great student and i ditched school almost every day. i hadnt been entered for my g.c.s.e's, so what was the point in me being there?

so i left school with no qualifications and started working. after my overdose i started to get back on track. i went to college. that may seem very unlikely to you, but i went because i got paid to go. it was the only way i was gonna go and learn stuff. now i'm qualified to work with both kids and adults with learning disabilities. i'm actually qualified to teach music. didnt see that one coming did you?

i think i proved that school is over rated