ok, so i'm deteriorating quicker than usual. i dont know why, but i am. reaching the point now where i dont want to be around anyone at all. the dogs have been banished from the basement and i'm about ready to crawl underneath the stairs and wait there until this all goes away. but thats the problem with manic depression, it'll go away eventually, but then it'll be back before i know it and i'll be right back here again
in the past when i've been this low, i've found something, anything with a sharp edge and dragged it across my left forearm until it bled. then i'd do it a little more coz the feeling was nice. sometimes i'd keep going until i got light headed. i havent cut myself like that since easter. i bite my thumbs though which i'm trying to stop. i'm amazed i havent taken to biting my tongue at the point where my jaw locks shut. guess i'm lucky there
anyway, one person knows where to find me if i'm not under the stairs. i hope it doesnt get to that point tongiht. dont be concerned about me, this is quite normal. sorry to have bothered you
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