oh hai

been a few days since i last posted, been kinda busy

my baby girl is home from the hospital. she's perfect, she's healthy and she appears to be happy which is just awesome. baby boy already loves her and spends all his time when she's around just watching her and trying to play with her. he cant say her name yet, but he calls her "buhbuh" which makes me smile. like her brother, baby girl doesnt cry much, just when she needs attention. i cant say anything about sleepness night because i dont sleep anyway so her arrival hasnt changed anything there

i spent the whole time kay and baby girl were in hospital with them, which looking back probably wasnt my greatest idea because i got caught smoking weed in the bathroom (we had a private room, was almost like being in a hotel but the worst hotel there is with the most painful room deposit ever) by my own doctor who had come to congratulate us. he then told me to go and see him where he diagnosed me with exhaustion and an eating disorder. i prefer to take care of everyone around me before looking after myself and i forget to eat. i've lost a lot of weight over the last 3 months because i've been stressed and really down because of things going on around me, pretty mjuch only been eating one meal a week. i'm working on that now, taking it slowly and trying to eat at least a sandwich or something each day. trying my best to get better. its an uphill struggle but i'm determined to reach the top. i want to see my kids grow up, cant do that if i dont start looking after myself

in other news, as a thank you present to kay, i bought her a puppy. his name is duncan