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if you're reading this then you already know that i am once again in hospital. after becoming far too stressed over absolutely nothing in the very early hours of 26th, i started having quite bad chest pains. i went to the hospital and was immediately put on a heart monitor. my pacemaker stopped me from having my third heart attack

i was sedated which forced me to sleep and was out of it for pretty much 24 hours. i woke up today and felt ok. the day was good, i talked to my friends and got messages from celebrities wishing me better. my friends all then got together and wrote a story for me which was great even though i got lost halfway through. all i know is that i won the story, somehow. i made some new friends too which was good

but then, as with any time i'm ever happy, the crash came and now i feel like shit again. maybe its just temporary, and maybe seeing as i'm in a hospital right now they can give me something. we'll have to see

i want to go home